Mr Text - the final chapter....

So, as 2012 draws to a close, I have decided to put a lot of things to bed that are unhealthy and draining in my life, especially Mr Text.

Now you’ll remember that I had deleted his emails and texts in the vain hope of moving on? Well he came into the office again and we had the most awkward conversation yet – terribly polite, not daring to look one another in the eye. And of course, as suspected, he texted me after he left the building:  ”FIT!”

I told him the ‘friends’ thing was clearly not working and that it would have to be ‘cold turkey’ for a while. Which I thought was going to be the end of things, but then another guy we work with throughout the year suggested Christmas drinks...with him and Mr Text. I felt I couldn’t say no, but thankfully Mr Text cancelled last minute and I didn’t have to go.

Then last night I got THE texts of the century....
 

“You being free this afternoon filled my head with very naughty thoughts....ref cold turkey, you are a fabulous girl and very very very sexy. I feel if we met up for coffee, I’d SO want to...you know what! You are worth more than that and although I would never presume anything would happen, I do find you very attractive. I never use people as would hate that the other way round but could never envisage leaving the children...”

Swiftly followed by...

“That said, if you DO fancy a coffee later, maybe we could be tame and chat??!! Entirely up to you.”

Needless to say, this left me angry, swearing at my phone. Basically, he would be happy for me to be his whore but nothing else?!

So I sat and thought about things for a while and realised I had to remove him from my life entirely. I can never be his friend and those months without him contacting me I hardly thought about him.       

I am enjoying getting out a lot socially at the moment, extending my circle of friends and doing a little kissing with TC (see ‘Sexting’ blog – yes, we have met and yes, he comes up to scratch in the locking lips department!!)

So I composed myself and sent him the final message I would ever send him.....

“I don’t really get what you want from me or what you want me to say. I don’t think I can be your friend and I should never have allowed myself to care for you. I hope you have a lovely Christmas and would prefer it if you just contact me for work purposes from now on”.

There. I said it.

This morning I deleted his number from my phone and that, is what we call progress.

I feel empowered and am positive that next year will be MY year. I will finally get the recognition I deserve at work and let down my guard enough to let someone love me, as much as I desperately want deep down and deserve.

 

 

2013 - it’s a new dawn, it’s a new day, it’s a new life for me...and I’m feeling gooooooooooooood!!!!